14 June 2007
you have really taken me by surprise lately... did you even know that?
when you told me that you could see yourself being "with" me i nearly fell over... never in a million years did i think you would say that to me... hell, i am not even sure i ever thought you would even THINK it to be honest...
i always thought that you were just doing this till something better came along... i always hoped for more... but i never really thought it would happen...
why me? i'm nothing like your "type"... i'm not petite... i'm no fashionista... i'm not from old money... i don't wear the most expensive brands... hell... most days i can't even be bothered to put my makeup on!
is it really possible that, after all these many years, being myself actually worked? can you really like me for just being me? did being the smart, funny girl finally pay off?
you know what?
I DON'T CARE... all i care about it that it is working... and that is enough
hopefully i will manage not to screw this up... because for the first time in my entire life i have found someone that i am not afraid to be me with... and that is the best feeling i have ever felt...
thank you
<3
me