Random Thoughts
and
Loose Missions

I wish I knew what to do… I can’t sleep anymore.. I can’t eat… I feel nauseous half the time (if not more)… I am just sick of everything…

I am tired of feeling like a bad person… I am tired of being discontent and feeling edgy all the time… I used to laugh… I used to smile… I used to be the one who cheered others up… now it seems that everyone is constantly trying to cheer ME up…

It’s getting really old..

I want to go back… I want someone… ANYONE… to just reach out and hit “rewind”

I want to remember what it was like to sleep all night and NOT wake up feeling worse than when I closed my eyes…

I want to laugh again… I want my cheeks to hurt and my stomach to ache from so much hilarity I can’t stand another minute…

I want to be happy… plain and simple…

I honestly don’t know how much longer I can keep doing this… like I said… it’s getting REALLY old, REALLY quickly