Random Thoughts
and
Loose Missions

so i am supposed to have dinner tonight with the S.O.... NOT looking forward to it... i hate being in this situation... being around him makes me feel like such an ass most days... i KNOW he loves me... and i love him... i am just not IN love... and i HATE to hurt someone

i wish he would just find someone new... someone who can be all those things to and for him that i can NOT be... this would all be so much easier... i don't want to have to be the enemy... but at this point it is looking like there is no way to avoid it...