Random Thoughts
and
Loose Missions

my heart is being pulled in so many directions

i want love... real, no frills, hardcore love
i want passion
i want romance... but not the "hearts and flowers" garden variety kind
i want someone who misses me when i am gone... but not so much that he can't function
i want someone that wants to tell me all about his day... but not someone who needs me to hear every detail in order to validate it
i want someone who makes me laugh
i want someone who laughs at my jokes... but only because he REALLY gets them
i want someone who doesn't run when i cry
i want someone who loves me even when i am a raging bitch... which i am every now and then
i want someone who is worth crying myself to sleep over... but he can't be the reason i am always crying

i think i have found him... the problem is he isn't the one i am with...

here comes the "fun" part... it's decision making time...